1) You Got It – Roy Orbison. This is actually my earliest memory of music. My dad is a big Roy Orbison fan, and I can remember him holding me and singing me (off key) Orbison songs. I have a way different interpretation for this song instead of the romantic context. For me, the “anything you need, you got it” line feels like a caring parent addressing their kid. Weird, I know. If I have kids, they’re definitely getting my take on this.

2) Bye Bye Bye – *NSYNC. Whew. Here we go. The first (and only) cassette I owned was NSYNC’s No Strings Attached. I was a product of the late 90’s and early 2000’s and I will still defend this song as a certified BANGER if I need to.

3) Hit or Miss – New Found Glory. Shortly after spiked hair and begging my mom to buy me blond hair dye, I got into pop punk music. The fact that I skateboarded every single day probably helped a little. This is just one of those catchy, bouncy bops that I was all about in the early 2000’s.

4) Look What Happened – Less Than Jake.We’re reaching 14-16 year-old Isaac’s jams. For better or worse, around then I went through a “growing up way too fast” segment of life. I relied heavily on music to get through some intense times and these escapist lyrics of “we’ll talk about leaving town” and the vibe of “staying up all night wanting to get out” really resonated heavily with me. This song has all of those feelings of escape/looking for escape that I really identified with at the time.

5) The Downfall of Us All – A Day to Remember. In 2009, a record called Homesick came out, and it was the single. biggest. deal. for anyone who liked heavier music and or hung outside of a Hot Topic or at the skate park. In Summer 2009 and 2010 this record had the jams. No question about it. I remember barking along with this intro in my friend’s absolute piece of trash Chevy and driving to the skate park. I even remember the smell. It wasn’t a good one.

6) Relentless Intolerance – Demon Hunter. I maintained a group of friends who were both Christians AND really loved metalcore/heavy music. They always recommended bands, and Demon Hunter was basically their jam. I got into them around the same time I was bumping ADTR (song #5), but DH had that element of faith that frankly, I didn’t have at the time. It was kind of cool how that music met me where I was and, looking back, actually ministered to me heavily even though I didn’t realize it.

7) Just Like Heaven – The Cure. We’re crossing into late-teens Isaac now. The skinny jeans have been replaced with ironically loose-fitting thrift store Dickies and terrible “grandma-esque” t-shirts that I paid $2 for in the St. Louis area Goodwills. Once I moved up to STL, I fell in with a few people who I’d say fit the exact definition of “hipster,” and I found a lot of music that I still love with them. Specifically The Cure. I’m including this song because this is actually the song that Bri walked down the aisle to at our wedding (our compromise was that we got the Vitamin String Orchestra version).

8) Good As New – Vacationer. If you’ll glance outside of your window, you’ll see that we’re passing “college Isaac” on our left here – note the baggy sweatshirts and the lack of sleep! College was all about combating stress and depression with light, lo-fi music. Like this. Still love this music.

9) Together, Burning Bright! – Take it Back! We’re now arriving at post-grad, “Lol, what am I doing and how do I adult?” Isaac. Take It Back! is actually a local NWA band that my friend and former band-mate was in. This is a time where I’m really focused on local music, and music with a more redemptive message. Still haven’t kicked my addiction to heavier music, either. “We could look fear in the face and say we never want to be this way again.”

10) Broken Hands – Paperweight. Is it conceited to have a song that you wrote on a list of important music to yourself? Oh well, here goes: this was the last song that I recorded with the band I was in. I wrote the opening verse and chorus to this song. “What can I fix with broken hands, busted knuckles flecked white from the walls of my home, I keep taking your calls talking you back off your ledge while I sit on my own.” This song is meant to address how I and so many other people deal with depression. Super compassionate to others that have it, but more than neglectful in treating/addressing it in ourselves. Before playing this song for the last time, I hopped on mic and got a chance to speak about it a little bit. After our set, a guy who followed our band a lot came up to me and told me how he lost his mom to depression recently, and we actually prayed together right there outside of a bar surrounded by a ton of people. I’ll never forget that.